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What is true?

Pörrö | October 22, 2009

Prologue:

Life is about meanings – meanings are feelings

Meredith wrote an important one about what is real. It made me cry and laugh – I know what that means even though my pain is lesser and my path is different.

It was strong feeling, strong moment.

As I said in the later comment this morning (my time) I usually just hatch the feelings way too much. This time I took them and started painting.

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Reality is like truth: they don’t exist but they are both real and true.

In my reality I have had to give birth to baby that had no possibility to live outside womb. It is as horrible as it sounds, jet still it was in a way beautiful too. I have had these reds and browns of blood in my head since. I have started to paint them out numerous time never getting it out.

This morning it was all done, all ready, to come out as I finally stopped standing in the way and let my hands do the work. This says all about the day and there is not more I want to say about this subject. This is truth of what I experienced, the best way I can describe it.

AARRE 26/10 2005

4 inc x 4 inc clayboard, inks, scraping

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Epilogue

Art is not for sissies

After releasing the image all of the other abandoned images inside me started to yell, jump and waiwe their hairy little emotions in a line wanting to be first to come out. I was supposed to grocery shopping. Instead I had something more important to say.